After I came back from BritMums Live this year I promised myself that I would only blog about things that really mattered to me, or that I thought would be interesting to other people. Unfortunately this strategy has resulted in a dearth of posts.Its not that I'm not interested in things ... I am, but sometimes I just can't write about them, mainly because I don't want to offend anyone or betray confidences.
To be honest I am in a bit of a trough. Where do I stand in the world of blogging? And does it really matter? I was very flattered to make the Finals of BritMums Brilliance in Blogging Awards this year, but really... I'm not part of the blogging 'in crowd'... if there is such a thing. I don't have a cause to blog about and, to be honest, even I get bored of my allotment after a while!
I think perhaps my blogging reflects my life right now. I am at a bit of a crossroads ... This year my husband and I turn 50 and that's an age where you tend to look at your life and think about where you're going.... where you've been. My age doesn't bother me, but I do look and wonder what my next goal is... I am trying to lose weight and get fit and come the Spring my allotment will come back into focus, but I have no big goal. That's unusual for me because I have always seemed to have something to aim for, some new challenge.
Over the last 10 years I have run the London Marathon, completed my degree at the Open University, but now?? I can't think what I want to do... I feel that I have, to a certain extent, wasted my abilities, but if faced with the same choices I would not change my decisions. I have always believed that you do your best every moment you are given and you make decisions based on your life as it is right then. Hindsight is a dangerous luxury.
The year ahead looks rosy. We are planning a big party for our birthdays in the summer and we have holidays planned too. We are incredibly fortunate. Perhaps I should just go with the flow for now? Maybe I should just be open to opportunities that arise and be ready for what presents itself? I have learnt, this year, just how fleeting fortune can be. I have too many friends who were well this time last year and who are now mid way through chemotherapy. They make me realise just how lucky I am to be able to do exercise, write, go on holiday.
I would like to learn something new, but what?? Perhaps I should just concentrate on being a better person. I have realised this year that I do not suffer fools gladly. I am not tolerant of people I consider lazy or selfish and, having been loathe to be rude to people most of my life, I discover that I am more than ready to speak my mind these days if I am annoyed by those around me. This is not necessarily a good thing!
So... I am now going to go and tidy my wardrobe. I will not be writing about it, but if you have any suggestions for me then do feel free to tell me! If anything at all interesting happens ( in my life, not in the wardrobe ... its not bloody Narnia in there) I will let you know. Thanks for reading my blog.
To be honest I am in a bit of a trough. Where do I stand in the world of blogging? And does it really matter? I was very flattered to make the Finals of BritMums Brilliance in Blogging Awards this year, but really... I'm not part of the blogging 'in crowd'... if there is such a thing. I don't have a cause to blog about and, to be honest, even I get bored of my allotment after a while!
I think perhaps my blogging reflects my life right now. I am at a bit of a crossroads ... This year my husband and I turn 50 and that's an age where you tend to look at your life and think about where you're going.... where you've been. My age doesn't bother me, but I do look and wonder what my next goal is... I am trying to lose weight and get fit and come the Spring my allotment will come back into focus, but I have no big goal. That's unusual for me because I have always seemed to have something to aim for, some new challenge.
Over the last 10 years I have run the London Marathon, completed my degree at the Open University, but now?? I can't think what I want to do... I feel that I have, to a certain extent, wasted my abilities, but if faced with the same choices I would not change my decisions. I have always believed that you do your best every moment you are given and you make decisions based on your life as it is right then. Hindsight is a dangerous luxury.
The year ahead looks rosy. We are planning a big party for our birthdays in the summer and we have holidays planned too. We are incredibly fortunate. Perhaps I should just go with the flow for now? Maybe I should just be open to opportunities that arise and be ready for what presents itself? I have learnt, this year, just how fleeting fortune can be. I have too many friends who were well this time last year and who are now mid way through chemotherapy. They make me realise just how lucky I am to be able to do exercise, write, go on holiday.
I would like to learn something new, but what?? Perhaps I should just concentrate on being a better person. I have realised this year that I do not suffer fools gladly. I am not tolerant of people I consider lazy or selfish and, having been loathe to be rude to people most of my life, I discover that I am more than ready to speak my mind these days if I am annoyed by those around me. This is not necessarily a good thing!
So... I am now going to go and tidy my wardrobe. I will not be writing about it, but if you have any suggestions for me then do feel free to tell me! If anything at all interesting happens ( in my life, not in the wardrobe ... its not bloody Narnia in there) I will let you know. Thanks for reading my blog.
