Friday 6 May 2011

The feeling of not being alone ...

I was wandering past the room where a previous colleague of mine works today and as I heard her voice I was aware of the difference she had made in my life. Its funny isn't it, how people come into your life and really affect you? This lady did, in a good way, and I miss working with her. She has left a strong sense of presence in my life.

There are other people who have done this and I feel their presence sometimes.Perhaps its my memory of them that is strong or perhaps its something else...

I worked with a lady when I first started my job. She was older than me and a real inspiration. I covered for her when she first fell ill with breast cancer and our friendship blossomed as time went on. She was funny and kind and I loved her.Sadly she died, but I often think of her. I was sitting alone in the library not long ago, where she and I worked together often and all of a sudden I was struck by a tremendous sense of her presence. It was as though she was standing at my shoulder. I wanted to whisper," I miss you, J." but I felt a bit embarrassed in the silence of the room. Instead I let a tear roll down my cheek and looked over my shoulder and smiled.

When my dad died I had similar feelings. For about two weeks after he had died I would be alone in my lounge, watching tv, when I would be suddenly struck, out of the blue, by the feeling that he was there, in the room, sitting on the opposite sofa. Maybe it was part of the grieving process and I have to say that that time I did speak to him, or at least I spoke to the empty room. It made me feel better and as I say, after about two weeks the sensation went away. It was as if he knew that I would be ok.

The mind plays funny tricks on a person and who knows whether my memory was working overtime or those two people actually visited me in spirit. I will probably never know and I am pretty down to earth about these things - I just go with the flow! But I liked the feeling. It made me feel close to people I loved and still do love.

3 comments:

B said...

Hi Sarah,
"J" was special and I often think of her and how her husband is managing without her. I also felt for the children who were born too late to know her and receive her cuddles.
B.

Razmataz said...

I know what you mean. I have had similar feelings. After my boss died I "felt" him in his office brush my shoulder. A few weeks later I had a vivid but odd dream about him. He was calm and relaxed and his face was smooth and trouble free and he was holding a beautiful peice of cheese, extremely pleased with it. When I woke, I had a feeling of his presence. Later a phychic told me he had paid that visit to show he was ok and happy and at peace (He loved good food, hence the cheese). I am not sure how to explain it all, but as you know there is a certain energy and you can feel it.

Pauline said...

Like you, I don't know whether such 'visits' are real or not. But I know when my grandmother sits on my bed at night when my mind is troubled that she has come to pat my hand and tell me it's OK. This has been happening for over 20 years. I don't care if it's all in my mind - it helps!