Tuesday, 16 January 2007

Not all that sparkles........



There are days when the world is a place where I feel lost. Today was one of those days.

Son #2 is the loveliest boy, funny and loving, but sometimes I just don't know how to deal with him. I gave him so much love today because he was upset and worried and he just was so, so mean to me.

How can a little fella make you feel so lost and useless ? I would do anything for him and yet he rejects me time after time.

I am trying so hard to be a good mummy, but right now I just want to cry. I am so lucky in my life and I know that I have no right to feel sorry for myself when other people are in dire straits. But some days the world is a hard place to live in.

6 comments:

Shane said...

Hello! I came across your blog by clicking on the "next blog" button at the top of my own blog. Hang in there. I have two boys too...ages 9 and 6. Luckily the good days will far outweigh the bad ones.

Sarah said...

Thank you Shane. Sorry you had to find my blog on a bad day. I really appreciate your thoughts. S

Out of my head said...

Hi,it's ratroutus
i'm not a mother but i know how to be a child. Of course he will reject you cz he knows how much you love him. i do the same to my mom. she loves me so much that she makes me angry. By loving him this much you are the best mummy for him. Someday he will say it to you. God Bless you !

Farm Wife said...

You're right...some days it's just hard. He'll love you in the morning because he knows you love him regardless. But those little ones can cut us to the quick.

Margot said...

Not a mother yet, but I too have driven my poor mum crazy some days by acting as a little monster...
As "Out of my head" said, someday he will say how much he too loves you ;-)

ps : I've put some new pictures, because you asked so nicely ;-)

trixie stix said...

I know your heart . . . my kids do the same to me. But tomorrow will be a new day.