How can I feel top of the world one day and down in the depths the next? Tonight my man is at work. I won't see much of him tomorrow as it is Footballday and then he goes to visit his dad until late Sunday night. Then back to work for me. Tonight I just want to cry. I sit here after a full day working and trying to be a good mum and I wonder why I bother. Every night at the moment I seem to have a row with son#2, and every night I end up in tears. I try so hard to be a good wife, good friend, good mummy and yet inside, sometimes I am just falling apart.People in the real world think I am this happy, calm person, confident and bright, but a lot of the time it is a facade. After I had both my boys I had Post Natal Depression and I know that things are not as bad as that by a long way, but some nights I feel the darkness drawing in around me again. I don't want to bore people with my down times , but this is the place where I can write my thoughts to try and free my mind. I know that in the morning I will be ok, but here as I sit alone, tears streaming down my face I am lost.